You know what I've been thinking about lately? Myself. With my grandfather being sick instead of it being about him, it has turned into something about me. But that's what death is... a big ball of selfishness, not for the person dying, but for the people around that person. For a christian we should feel two things, 1) There is a time for mourning and being sad-- why? Well children that's because we have no idea how long we will be separated from this dear person, 2) Joyful. God once told me "The heart can be happy while the mind is unhappy, therefore it is by far better to be joyful because joy feeds the heart, mind and most importantly- the soul." So there's a little God wisdom for you, but back to what i was saying. Yes joy. And if your me a little bit of jealousy. I mean seriously. Though I will miss him for the handful of decades more I will be here...
My grandpa gets to go to freaking Heaven and see Christ and sing to him for ETERNITY.
Yea... I'm jealous. But back to joy. Joy. We all know what it is. And we are supposed to feel it, but often times it gets jumbled in with other nasty feelings such as doubt. But see if we were always focused on God, these nasty feelings would not be a problem. But to date the only person I've ever know to have focused on God %100 of the time is Jesus... and that's hardly fair considering that he is God. So if you are experiencing something similar to me know this: though you love this person a lot you will see them again soon(hopefully), if you stay focused on God and keep your thoughts from yourself God will refine you. And that pain. That devil awful pain eating away at your heart, you know the one that makes you dis functional. It will all start to fade. This is just the dark before the morning. The hurt before the healing. All you have to do is give all your pain over to Christ. And trust me-- he can take it, he's taken far worse pain than you and i will ever know.
Hmm. According to the definition of eternal (timeless; without beginning or end), when you die, you will have just as much time, per se, as your Grandfather - and everyone else who has/is/will going to heaven - to be before God and praise him. It is difficult to put into words, due to the fact that I am trying to explain how everyone in heaven has the same amount of time there, because our eternity there has no beginning or end. If you don't understand, I will try to give a more logical explanation.
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